what do i do when it's over?

The semester is finally over, and here I am, almost 4 o'clock in the morning and still dread the idea of going to bed and sleep. I had so many things planned for the winter break, I don't know where to start. One thing for sure, I now have all the time I want to read all those interesting fictions I found on the internet a couple of weeks ago.

Even during the finals, I spent hours reading those. Now that I think about it, I wonder if it would make a difference if I had spent those hours doing extra revisions for the finals instead. Would there be less blanks on my answer sheets? Maybe...maybe not. I don't know. It's not like I knew what I was learning for the last 4 months anyway. I felt that this semester has been a veeeeery long one. I'm glad that I had it done and over with. A few 'scratches' and 'bruises' here and there, but I survived. Somehow...yeah..

I'm tired really...physically, mentally, emotionally. Sounds like a jaded, old lady, eh? Oh well, it would be really nice if I can pack my stuff, get a plane ticket and head back to my home country and never come back. But that's insane, isn't it? What would I do when I get there? As much as I hate school and studying, I must admit that that's what has been keeping me sane. Those busy days, those worries about assignments and term papers, really kept my mind occupied and made me feel like life has meanings. 

Don't get me wrong tho..I AM a very lazy person, yet I hate being idle the most. It makes me feel lonely. It's just two three days since the break started, yet as I stared at the ceiling after waking up from my slumber, I missed the anxiety of the mornings when I woke up and rushed to prepare myself for classes, thinking I might be late. You think I'm crazy? I think so too. Oh well, when a new semester starts soon, I might then say I miss waking up late everyday and worrying about nothing! You know this kind of thing, rite? It's the same feeling as you miss somebody when he's gone.

I miss school when it's over. How's that?